I can be moody, annoyed, whiny, and sad just like everyone else, but I know I'm not imagining it when I think that I am basically a happy, optimistic, and forgiving person. I am so darn nice that it has gotten me into trouble a few times! I don't set enough boundaries, and I let people take advantage of me. I want to believe in the basic good of humanity, or at least of the person standing in front of me, and it takes a lot to get me to distrust someone.
But I have been pushed to the limit. One too many times have I been judged. One too many times scoffed at, and too many times have I been brushed aside. Actually, i don't think I have ever been this close to a person who treats others this way, and maybe that's why it is so hurtful. I guess I didn't think that MY friends, family, or colleagues really act like that! Alas, one person does. And I just don't know how to deal anymore.
I think I am officially being bitchy towards that person. At least I am being a bit passive and cold. It's my first time acting like this. It's weird. I hope i don't regret it one day. Sigh. I am not as strong as I thought I was.
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